If you never meet, my thoughts always so heavy. If you pass, life will not be easy. If destined to leave, why not be loved again. Your smile, deep in my loving memories. Your eyes, into Acacia rain save my withered heart.
Summer, old library, blowing fans, a few people around the table playing chess. Your focus, smart, smile, I can not face up to your eyes, secretly watching you, my heart pounded jump must be some heart, or why those nights have been shaken. I wander the campus every way, where you may appear wandering, I hope to meet you, even for once.
After moving to the school dormitory door, I was depressed, our distance suddenly stretched. Static facing the distant gray sky, dejected, looking cactus on the windowsill guess your thoughts. I go to the library, upstairs and downstairs, a reading room luck, find your shadow, and you want to encounter. Your birthday that I bought socks and gloves for you, then you will care y to bring me a pot of cactus, glossy dark green glossy dark green, the whole body covered with thorns. On w birthday party, you're sitting next to me, smiled at me, give me their food, I think the moment will become caring and sweet forever. A certain period, an early summer afternoon, when the train turn the bus, in the car met you, you laugh look, really charming.
I embroidered a clown doll, Trustee for you. I followed y go to your class, just to see you. I went to the study room lurking, I await your appear, but my luck is bad, not even once have not met you. I thought my spring, the first time you call me, about to meet me in front of the main building, I was very happy. We both leaned against the stone steps next to the bed side, we breeze, basking in the sun, as we speak, we smile. I was very upset, forget we said something. But I can feel the pure, romantic, warm, sweet, and beautiful.
Memory, there are many details about the past, I think all in my heart, I wish to meet you. If you do not like me, why would y to call, but also to ask me good. If I do not like you, why would you come to my dormitory when playing heartbeat stop. If you do not like me, why would I have recovered back to school after I eat my favorite sweet potato, your eyes clearly reveals the care and affection.
If I do not like you, why I will call you and hang up within one second, edited numerous text messages sent to you are nothing but dare not. If you do not like me, why make me so obsessed with you, why let me have a mistaken response, and unscrupulous to miss you. I dream of you, I miss you, waiting for you.
Small woods behind the old library, I think, when you will go there, spend a morning or an afternoon. I always sat on a rock, looking at the other side of the willow stroking water. A pool of clear water and dry up, dry and up; the leaves from green to yellow, yellow and fall; the blossoms and Frank, thank you again opened. I was not always the case on you. The last time we met was graduation reply, you just come and help me to adjust a little paper format, we have no words, we get along with less than two minutes. I just secretly watching you, in the distance sitting beside the computer, or chat with classmates, or smiling. You did not see my love's eyes, did not hear my heart beating. You are not, with my sad intertwined. If you realize that this will be the last time we met, you think you can so easily escape the sea of my heart. At least we want to once again leave loved. So, now I will live day and night Acacia.
I imagined the scene of encounter, dialogue with how my anxiety, I repeated the exercise with a smile coming and going on the road, any thoughts flooded; now you see people who look alike, I could even blush in the crowded the car, I hope to meet you; in the afternoon blocks, I hope every you, hanging you smile like the sun.
If one day we met, I would smile and say to you, hey, long time no see, how are you! We just pleasantries. Since leaving school, I miss you all the time, I want to see you, waiting for you, waiting for you to love me back. Did you hear my heart cries it? Each message about you, I have carefully favorites to memory, I am glad, but also that your messages from classmates mouth, I was joy. Hear about your messages like soothing, sweet and pleasant.
I dream of you, in the dream, you are carrying me, close to me, you stay with me; you know me, care about me, you miss me. We hand in hand, walking in the countryside on the way; we embrace, feeling each other's temperature. We go a very long way, we tell deep, deep thoughts. I like the dream, in the dream, I belong to you, you belong to me, we love each other, we are convinced that the other side. Wake up, I did not want to wake up, look at me, uh, uh, how self-deception!
February 18, when I plucked up courage to ask about whether Dangdie after waiting a full five hours, waiting for you a reply. It waits, like a autumn is so long, I could not suppress sad, throat choking, tears fall, and cool. If not during write an anonymous letter to you, you will respond to me? You join me say a word it? February 20, February 28, I'll give you a message, you did not respond.
I just braved silly, give you a list of a few precautions raising children, and I am just Tips Bale. I waited, have been waiting, waiting for you to reply. Finally, I did not wait maybe I say no matter what the words are insignificant strike. March 4 I deleted your **, because I can not control myself: Place open the list over and over again, to see if you are on the line, every day immersed in thoughts unable to extricate themselves. You on the line, I'm happy, looking forward; you off, I lost, confused.
Seven years seven months, even a word you are unwilling to leave me feeling even ordinary friend you cut, you became my life's most ruthless man. If you do not love to hate how could, how could such a fuss if not hate, seeking balance, forget, does not fit, do not toss. Love can not remain indifferent, if once loved each other, I'll know you deeper. If you loved once, I'll flies easier
When the youth no longer looks old, I can not hesitate, over the mountains to see you? As the years ruthlessly carved traces the vicissitudes of life, you'll put aside all worldly shackles came to see me? While memory can present your sunny smile, while time has not yet rubbed my dreaming of love, while the romantic cherry yet wither, while the soul as well as your voice, while we still have a chance to cherish , while I still love you, I want to own madness once and again: see you.
I would not be able to win your love, thinking of you day and night since, determined to see you, brave to reveal the truth, regardless of whether this road is rugged, or frustrations. I can not slow down the pace of the wind, the rain could not drown my heart the sea, the wind and rain, do not make me become upset and confused. I love you, love you free lonely soul. I love you, no turning back, over the mountains.
People on such a life, if I love, I will boldly tell the truth, even if at the moment is no longer appropriate. Because I will not go today a thing of the past; lifetime the past, everything disappeared. Not speak a word, not a reunion, then no chance. This precious life, I do not want to regret! People on such a life, I do not want to miss passing through, I just paranoid and you want to see the side. I just want to hear a few words, greeting each other, or just pleasantries. I tried to learn to let go, to make themselves busy to attend to you, I try and try to calm his mind, may have little effect. I hope you can help me untie knots, openly and plainly reject me, long pain as short-term pain, so I'll feel better.
I want you, miss you, see you, I want to tell you I can not forget you! I sleep, I cry, my throat soreness, pain in my heart, I want to talk to you, I just want to see you again! We only have this life, I do not want to leave with regret, I would like to talk to you, like a common friend in general; I want you, I want to see you. Till death do us part, wax torch ashes tears dry. Cried a river, miss ashes. I wait for you, wait until I can no longer love you.
If you wait for me, always as strike, let the burning youth away from this, so that from this beautiful Love old. I have nothing to hate, and this world more than that, the fate of being abandoned, abandoned heart. In the long river of life, in fact, nothing can hold my own, including you and me, including love.
Just to, just to get your attention circulation at a moment of love. I was a moth, toward the fire, after burning, will become ashes. However, if you refuse burning, next, what can I rest? In addition to a gradual rough, gradually broken heart gradually lost its luster in the years mottled. I fell into the fire, toward the afterlife, with tears I miss with my sincere tone, timid woman with a gentle, beautiful youth, for you to sing a song more clear.
When the lights go out, stop singing in the moonless night, I can only turn into a wisp of smoke, gone in the wind, no one saw. Even if you finally appeared, and no change in the waiting disappeared all the details about our past. In every night, even if you shouted my name, I also again unable to answer, unable to smile for you.
I fell in love with a man, but I did not fall in love with a real person, I just fell in love with an imaginary person. Around that person has a mysterious atmosphere around me that wonderful feeling to create a certain atmosphere, but more and more to the man who imagined projection.
When imagination becomes a heavy burden, as it is now, I wake up, I want to destroy it created in my imagination around. Because I do not want it to imprisonment, I want to be free, I just want to be myself! But I can not stop thoughts, I still waited until rivers of tears, until mentally exhausted, into a desert, until the bleeding heart cry, covered with scabs, until all the dreams, all shattered. And I have to wait until the waves into your eyes inside.
如果不曾相逢，我的心緒怎會(huì)如此沉重。如果擦肩而過，一生也不會(huì)輕松。如果注定別離，為何不能愛過。你的微笑，深藏在我愛戀的回憶里。你的眼神，化成相思雨拯救我干枯的心田。 盛夏，老圖書館，吹著電扇，幾個(gè)人圍在桌邊下棋。你的專注、瀟灑、淺笑，我不敢正視你的眼睛，偷偷看你，我的心砰砰跳起來一定是有些心動(dòng)，不然那些夜晚為何一直搖晃。我游蕩在校園的每一條路上，在你可能出現(xiàn)的地方徘徊，我希望能碰到你，哪怕也好。 宿舍搬到校門口后，我一度消沉，我們的距離一下子拉長(zhǎng)了。靜對(duì)著遠(yuǎn)處灰白的天空，黯然神傷，看著窗臺(tái)上的仙人球猜測(cè)你的心思。我去圖書館，樓上樓下，一間間閱覽室碰運(yùn)氣，尋覓你的身影，想和你遇上。你生日那次我買了襪子和手套送給你，后來你便托y給我?guī)Я艘慌柘扇饲颍途G油綠的，渾身長(zhǎng)滿刺。在w的生日宴上，你坐在我旁邊，對(duì)我笑，給我夾菜，我以為那一刻的關(guān)懷和甜蜜會(huì)變成永遠(yuǎn)。某年某月，某個(gè)初夏的午后，下火車轉(zhuǎn)乘公交車時(shí)，在車上遇見你，你笑的模樣，真是迷人。 我繡了一個(gè)小丑娃，托人送給你。我跟著y去上你們的課，只為了見你。我到自習(xí)室潛伏，我等待著你出現(xiàn)，可是我的運(yùn)氣實(shí)在太差了，居然連都沒有遇上你。我以為我的春天來了，你第打電話我，約我在主樓前見面，我高興極了。我們倆靠在石階旁花壇邊，我們迎著微風(fēng)，曬著太陽，我們說話，我們微笑。我懊惱極了，忘記了我們說了什么話。但我能感覺到的是純真、浪漫、溫馨、甜蜜，又美好。 記憶里還有很多關(guān)于從前的細(xì)節(jié)，我想全部都藏在心底，我多么希望遇見你。如果你沒有喜歡我，為何會(huì)給y打電話，還要問我好不好。如果我沒有喜歡你，為何會(huì)在你來我宿舍玩的時(shí)候，心跳個(gè)不停。如果你沒有喜歡我，為什么會(huì)在我病愈后返校時(shí)請(qǐng)我吃我喜歡的紅薯，你的眼里分明透著關(guān)懷和疼惜。 如果我沒有喜歡你，為何會(huì)打你電話，并在一秒內(nèi)掛斷，編輯了無數(shù)條短信卻都不敢發(fā)給你。如果你沒有喜歡我，為何會(huì)讓我如此迷戀你，為何會(huì)讓我誤以為有了回應(yīng)，而肆無忌憚地思念著你。我夢(mèng)見你，我思念著你，等待著你。 老圖書館后面的小樹林，我想你的時(shí)候就會(huì)去那里，呆一上午，或一下午。我總是坐在石頭上，看著對(duì)岸的柳絲輕撫水面。一池碧水漲了又干，干了又漲；葉子綠了又黃了，黃了又落了；花開了又謝了，謝了又開了。我始終遇不上你。后見面是畢業(yè)答辯，你只是過來幫我調(diào)整了一下論文格式，我們沒有言語，我們相處不到兩分鐘。我只是偷偷看你，在遠(yuǎn)處電腦旁邊坐著，或與同學(xué)交談，或微笑著。你卻沒有看到我眷戀的眼神，沒有聽到我跳動(dòng)的心。你的無意，與我的難過交織在一起。如果覺悟到這將是后見面，你以為你能如此輕易逃出我的心海。至少我們要愛過再別離。如此，便不負(fù)我現(xiàn)在的日夜相思。 我幻想著相遇的場(chǎng)景，我焦慮著如何對(duì)話，我反復(fù)練習(xí)著微笑在人來人往的路上，任思念泛濫成災(zāi)；看到跟你長(zhǎng)得相像的人，我竟會(huì)臉紅心跳在擁擠的車上，我希望遇見你；在午后的街口，我希望逢著你，掛著陽光般燦爛笑容的你。 假如某一天我們相遇了，我會(huì)笑著對(duì)你說，嗨，好久不見，你好嗎！我們只是寒暄。自從離開學(xué)校，我無時(shí)無刻不在思念你，想見你，等你，等你愛我一回。你聽到我心底的吶喊聲了嗎？每一個(gè)關(guān)于你的消息，我都都小心翼翼收藏到記憶里，我慶幸，還能從同學(xué)口中得知你的消息，我是歡喜的。聽到關(guān)于你的消息有如天籟之音，悅耳又動(dòng)聽。 我夢(mèng)見你，在夢(mèng)里，你背著我，靠近我，你一直呆在我身邊；你懂我、關(guān)心我，你也思念我。我們手牽手，漫步在鄉(xiāng)間路上；我們擁抱著，感受彼此的溫度。我們走很長(zhǎng)很長(zhǎng)的路，我們?cè)V說很深很深的思念。我喜歡這樣的夢(mèng)，在夢(mèng)里，我屬于你，你也屬于我，我們愛著彼此，我們深信對(duì)方。夢(mèng)醒了，我卻不愿醒來，看我呵，多么自欺欺人呵！ 2月18日，當(dāng)我鼓起勇氣問一句是否快要當(dāng)?shù)螅却宋鍌€(gè)小時(shí)，等你一句回復(fù)。這等待，好似一個(gè)秋那般漫長(zhǎng)，我抑不住憂傷，喉嚨哽塞，眼淚滑落，透心涼。如果不是其間給你寫了一封匿名信，你會(huì)回復(fù)我么？你會(huì)同我說一句話么？2月20日、2月28日，我給你留言，你沒有回復(fù)。 我只是冒著傻氣，給你羅列幾條養(yǎng)孩子的注意事項(xiàng)而已，我只是友情提示罷了。我等，一直等，等你回復(fù)。終于，我沒有等到或許我無論說什么言語，都無足輕重罷。3月4日我刪掉了你的**，因?yàn)槲覜]辦法控制自己：一遍一遍地點(diǎn)開列表，看你是否上線，每日沉浸在思念里不能自拔。你上線，我歡喜、期待；你離線，我失落、迷茫。 七年七個(gè)月，你連一句話都不肯留給我，連普通的朋友之情你都斬?cái)?，你成了我生命里無情的人。如果沒有愛怎會(huì)生恨，如果沒有恨怎會(huì)如此計(jì)較、求平衡，忘不掉、放不下、拋不去。愛，不能無動(dòng)于衷，如果彼此愛過，我會(huì)更深地懂你。如果愛過，我是否會(huì)過得輕松一些 當(dāng)青春不再容顏老去，我還能義無反顧、翻山越嶺去見你嗎？當(dāng)歲月無情地刻下滄桑的痕跡，你會(huì)拋開一切世俗的束縛來見我嗎？趁記憶還能呈現(xiàn)你陽光燦爛的笑容，趁時(shí)光還沒有磨去我朝思暮想的愛戀，趁浪漫的櫻花還未凋謝，趁心靈深處還有你的聲音，趁我們還有機(jī)會(huì)去珍惜，趁我還愛著你，我想為自己瘋狂，就：去見你。 我不去想是否能贏得你的愛，既然日日夜夜思念你，下定決心去見你，就勇敢吐露真情，無論這條路是否崎嶇，或者坎坷。風(fēng)不能減緩我的步伐，雨不能淹沒我的心海，風(fēng)和雨，都不能使我，變得惆悵和迷茫。愛你，就愛你自由孤獨(dú)的靈魂。愛你，就義無反顧，翻山越嶺。 人就這么一輩子，如果我愛，我便大膽地表白，即便此刻已不再適宜。因?yàn)榻袢找蝗ケ悴粡?fù)返；一輩子過去，便什么都消逝了。一句話未講，相逢未有，便再也沒有機(jī)會(huì)了。這珍貴的一輩子，我不想留下遺憾！人就這么一輩子，我不想走過路過錯(cuò)過，我只是偏執(zhí)地想與你見一面。我只是想聽?zhēng)拙湓?，彼此問候，或者寒暄而已。我努力學(xué)習(xí)放下，使自己忙碌而無暇顧及你，我努力嘗試坦然與釋懷，可收效甚微。我希望你能幫我解開心結(jié)，大大方方明明白白拒絕我，長(zhǎng)痛不如短痛，這樣我會(huì)好過一些。 我想你，思念你，想見你，我想告訴你我忘不掉你！我失眠，我流淚，我喉嚨酸脹，我心疼痛，我想和你說說話，我只是想見你！我們只擁有這一輩子，我不想帶著遺憾離去，我想和你說話，像普通朋友一般；我很想你，我想見你。春蠶到死絲方盡，蠟炬成灰淚始干。淚流成河，思念成灰。我等你，等到我再也不能愛你。 假如，你待我，始終如初見，就讓燃燒著的青春從此遠(yuǎn)去，讓那絕美的年華從此老去。我沒有什么好怨恨的，這世間多的是，被棄置的命運(yùn)，被棄置的心。在生命的長(zhǎng)河里，其實(shí)，沒有什么是我自己可以把握的，包括你和我，包括愛情。 只求，只求能得到你目光流轉(zhuǎn)處，一瞬間的愛戀。我是飛蛾，撲向烈火，燃燒之后，必成灰燼。但是，如果不肯燃燒，往后，我還能剩下些什么？除了一顆，逐漸粗糙、逐漸破裂，逐漸在斑駁的歲月中失去了光澤的心。我撲向烈火，撲向來生，用我思念的淚，用我誠(chéng)摯的音，用一個(gè)溫柔膽怯的女子，美的青春，為你唱一首清越的歌。 當(dāng)燈火熄滅，歌聲停歇，在沒有月光的黑夜里，我只能化作一縷青煙，消逝在風(fēng)里，沒有人看見。即使你終于出現(xiàn)，也無從改變，在等待中消失了的關(guān)于從前我們的所有細(xì)節(jié)。在午夜夢(mèng)回，即使你喊出了我的名字，我也再無從應(yīng)答，無從對(duì)你笑。 我愛上一個(gè)人，但是我并沒有愛上一個(gè)真正的人，我只是愛上一個(gè)想象中的人。那個(gè)人的周圍有一種神秘的氣氛，我圍著那美妙的感覺也創(chuàng)造出某種氣氛，而且將越來越多的想象投射到那人身上。 當(dāng)想象變成了重?fù)?dān)，就像現(xiàn)在，我也醒悟過來，我想摧毀它在我周圍創(chuàng)造出來的想象了。因?yàn)槲也幌氡凰O(jiān)禁，我想要自由，我只是想要成為我自己！可我無法停止思念，我仍在等，等到淚流成河，等到心力憔悴，變成荒涼的沙漠，等到心啼出血，長(zhǎng)滿痂，等到所有夢(mèng)幻，都破滅。而我，還要等，直到融入你眼角的波光里。
如果不曾相逢，我的心緒怎會(huì)如此沉重。如果擦肩而過，一生也不會(huì)輕松。如果注定別離，為何不能愛過。你的微笑，深藏在我愛戀的回憶里。你的眼神，化成相思雨拯救我干枯的心田。 盛夏，老圖書館，吹著電扇，幾個(gè)人圍在桌邊下棋。你的專注、瀟灑、淺笑，我不敢正視你的眼睛，偷偷看你，我的心砰砰跳起來一定是有些心動(dòng)，不然那些夜晚為何一直搖晃。我游蕩在校園的每一條路上，在你可能出現(xiàn)的地方徘徊，我希望能碰到你，哪怕也好。 宿舍搬到校門口后，我一度消沉，我們的距離一下子拉長(zhǎng)了。靜對(duì)著遠(yuǎn)處灰白的天空，黯然神傷，看著窗臺(tái)上的仙人球猜測(cè)你的心思。我去圖書館，樓上樓下，一間間閱覽室碰運(yùn)氣，尋覓你的身影，想和你遇上。你生日那次我買了襪子和手套送給你，后來你便托y給我?guī)Я艘慌柘扇饲颍途G油綠的，渾身長(zhǎng)滿刺。在w的生日宴上，你坐在我旁邊，對(duì)我笑，給我夾菜，我以為那一刻的關(guān)懷和甜蜜會(huì)變成永遠(yuǎn)。某年某月，某個(gè)初夏的午后，下火車轉(zhuǎn)乘公交車時(shí)，在車上遇見你，你笑的模樣，真是迷人。 我繡了一個(gè)小丑娃，托人送給你。我跟著y去上你們的課，只為了見你。我到自習(xí)室潛伏，我等待著你出現(xiàn)，可是我的運(yùn)氣實(shí)在太差了，居然連都沒有遇上你。我以為我的春天來了，你第打電話我，約我在主樓前見面，我高興極了。我們倆靠在石階旁花壇邊，我們迎著微風(fēng)，曬著太陽，我們說話，我們微笑。我懊惱極了，忘記了我們說了什么話。但我能感覺到的是純真、浪漫、溫馨、甜蜜，又美好。 記憶里還有很多關(guān)于從前的細(xì)節(jié)，我想全部都藏在心底，我多么希望遇見你。如果你沒有喜歡我，為何會(huì)給y打電話，還要問我好不好。如果我沒有喜歡你，為何會(huì)在你來我宿舍玩的時(shí)候，心跳個(gè)不停。如果你沒有喜歡我，為什么會(huì)在我病愈后返校時(shí)請(qǐng)我吃我喜歡的紅薯，你的眼里分明透著關(guān)懷和疼惜。 如果我沒有喜歡你，為何會(huì)打你電話，并在一秒內(nèi)掛斷，編輯了無數(shù)條短信卻都不敢發(fā)給你。如果你沒有喜歡我，為何會(huì)讓我如此迷戀你，為何會(huì)讓我誤以為有了回應(yīng)，而肆無忌憚地思念著你。我夢(mèng)見你，我思念著你，等待著你。 老圖書館后面的小樹林，我想你的時(shí)候就會(huì)去那里，呆一上午，或一下午。我總是坐在石頭上，看著對(duì)岸的柳絲輕撫水面。一池碧水漲了又干，干了又漲；葉子綠了又黃了，黃了又落了；花開了又謝了，謝了又開了。我始終遇不上你。后見面是畢業(yè)答辯，你只是過來幫我調(diào)整了一下論文格式，我們沒有言語，我們相處不到兩分鐘。我只是偷偷看你，在遠(yuǎn)處電腦旁邊坐著，或與同學(xué)交談，或微笑著。你卻沒有看到我眷戀的眼神，沒有聽到我跳動(dòng)的心。你的無意，與我的難過交織在一起。如果覺悟到這將是后見面，你以為你能如此輕易逃出我的心海。至少我們要愛過再別離。如此，便不負(fù)我現(xiàn)在的日夜相思。 我幻想著相遇的場(chǎng)景，我焦慮著如何對(duì)話，我反復(fù)練習(xí)著微笑在人來人往的路上，任思念泛濫成災(zāi)；看到跟你長(zhǎng)得相像的人，我竟會(huì)臉紅心跳在擁擠的車上，我希望遇見你；在午后的街口，我希望逢著你，掛著陽光般燦爛笑容的你。 假如某一天我們相遇了，我會(huì)笑著對(duì)你說，嗨，好久不見，你好嗎！我們只是寒暄。自從離開學(xué)校，我無時(shí)無刻不在思念你，想見你，等你，等你愛我一回。你聽到我心底的吶喊聲了嗎？每一個(gè)關(guān)于你的消息，我都都小心翼翼收藏到記憶里，我慶幸，還能從同學(xué)口中得知你的消息，我是歡喜的。聽到關(guān)于你的消息有如天籟之音，悅耳又動(dòng)聽。 我夢(mèng)見你，在夢(mèng)里，你背著我，靠近我，你一直呆在我身邊；你懂我、關(guān)心我，你也思念我。我們手牽手，漫步在鄉(xiāng)間路上；我們擁抱著，感受彼此的溫度。我們走很長(zhǎng)很長(zhǎng)的路，我們?cè)V說很深很深的思念。我喜歡這樣的夢(mèng)，在夢(mèng)里，我屬于你，你也屬于我，我們愛著彼此，我們深信對(duì)方。夢(mèng)醒了，我卻不愿醒來，看我呵，多么自欺欺人呵！ 2月18日，當(dāng)我鼓起勇氣問一句是否快要當(dāng)?shù)螅却宋鍌€(gè)小時(shí)，等你一句回復(fù)。這等待，好似一個(gè)秋那般漫長(zhǎng)，我抑不住憂傷，喉嚨哽塞，眼淚滑落，透心涼。如果不是其間給你寫了一封匿名信，你會(huì)回復(fù)我么？你會(huì)同我說一句話么？2月20日、2月28日，我給你留言，你沒有回復(fù)。 我只是冒著傻氣，給你羅列幾條養(yǎng)孩子的注意事項(xiàng)而已，我只是友情提示罷了。我等，一直等，等你回復(fù)。終于，我沒有等到或許我無論說什么言語，都無足輕重罷。3月4日我刪掉了你的**，因?yàn)槲覜]辦法控制自己：一遍一遍地點(diǎn)開列表，看你是否上線，每日沉浸在思念里不能自拔。你上線，我歡喜、期待；你離線，我失落、迷茫。 七年七個(gè)月，你連一句話都不肯留給我，連普通的朋友之情你都斬?cái)?，你成了我生命里無情的人。如果沒有愛怎會(huì)生恨，如果沒有恨怎會(huì)如此計(jì)較、求平衡，忘不掉、放不下、拋不去。愛，不能無動(dòng)于衷，如果彼此愛過，我會(huì)更深地懂你。如果愛過，我是否會(huì)過得輕松一些 當(dāng)青春不再容顏老去，我還能義無反顧、翻山越嶺去見你嗎？當(dāng)歲月無情地刻下滄桑的痕跡，你會(huì)拋開一切世俗的束縛來見我嗎？趁記憶還能呈現(xiàn)你陽光燦爛的笑容，趁時(shí)光還沒有磨去我朝思暮想的愛戀，趁浪漫的櫻花還未凋謝，趁心靈深處還有你的聲音，趁我們還有機(jī)會(huì)去珍惜，趁我還愛著你，我想為自己瘋狂，就：去見你。 我不去想是否能贏得你的愛，既然日日夜夜思念你，下定決心去見你，就勇敢吐露真情，無論這條路是否崎嶇，或者坎坷。風(fēng)不能減緩我的步伐，雨不能淹沒我的心海，風(fēng)和雨，都不能使我，變得惆悵和迷茫。愛你，就愛你自由孤獨(dú)的靈魂。愛你，就義無反顧，翻山越嶺。 人就這么一輩子，如果我愛，我便大膽地表白，即便此刻已不再適宜。因?yàn)榻袢找蝗ケ悴粡?fù)返；一輩子過去，便什么都消逝了。一句話未講，相逢未有，便再也沒有機(jī)會(huì)了。這珍貴的一輩子，我不想留下遺憾！人就這么一輩子，我不想走過路過錯(cuò)過，我只是偏執(zhí)地想與你見一面。我只是想聽?zhēng)拙湓?，彼此問候，或者寒暄而已。我努力學(xué)習(xí)放下，使自己忙碌而無暇顧及你，我努力嘗試坦然與釋懷，可收效甚微。我希望你能幫我解開心結(jié)，大大方方明明白白拒絕我，長(zhǎng)痛不如短痛，這樣我會(huì)好過一些。 我想你，思念你，想見你，我想告訴你我忘不掉你！我失眠，我流淚，我喉嚨酸脹，我心疼痛，我想和你說說話，我只是想見你！我們只擁有這一輩子，我不想帶著遺憾離去，我想和你說話，像普通朋友一般；我很想你，我想見你。春蠶到死絲方盡，蠟炬成灰淚始干。淚流成河，思念成灰。我等你，等到我再也不能愛你。 假如，你待我，始終如初見，就讓燃燒著的青春從此遠(yuǎn)去，讓那絕美的年華從此老去。我沒有什么好怨恨的，這世間多的是，被棄置的命運(yùn)，被棄置的心。在生命的長(zhǎng)河里，其實(shí)，沒有什么是我自己可以把握的，包括你和我，包括愛情。 只求，只求能得到你目光流轉(zhuǎn)處，一瞬間的愛戀。我是飛蛾，撲向烈火，燃燒之后，必成灰燼。但是，如果不肯燃燒，往后，我還能剩下些什么？除了一顆，逐漸粗糙、逐漸破裂，逐漸在斑駁的歲月中失去了光澤的心。我撲向烈火，撲向來生，用我思念的淚，用我誠(chéng)摯的音，用一個(gè)溫柔膽怯的女子，美的青春，為你唱一首清越的歌。 當(dāng)燈火熄滅，歌聲停歇，在沒有月光的黑夜里，我只能化作一縷青煙，消逝在風(fēng)里，沒有人看見。即使你終于出現(xiàn)，也無從改變，在等待中消失了的關(guān)于從前我們的所有細(xì)節(jié)。在午夜夢(mèng)回，即使你喊出了我的名字，我也再無從應(yīng)答，無從對(duì)你笑。 我愛上一個(gè)人，但是我并沒有愛上一個(gè)真正的人，我只是愛上一個(gè)想象中的人。那個(gè)人的周圍有一種神秘的氣氛，我圍著那美妙的感覺也創(chuàng)造出某種氣氛，而且將越來越多的想象投射到那人身上。 當(dāng)想象變成了重?fù)?dān)，就像現(xiàn)在，我也醒悟過來，我想摧毀它在我周圍創(chuàng)造出來的想象了。因?yàn)槲也幌氡凰O(jiān)禁，我想要自由，我只是想要成為我自己！可我無法停止思念，我仍在等，等到淚流成河，等到心力憔悴，變成荒涼的沙漠，等到心啼出血，長(zhǎng)滿痂，等到所有夢(mèng)幻，都破滅。而我，還要等，直到融入你眼角的波光里。