A Hermit Thrush

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     Nothing's certain. Crossing, on this longest day,
     the low-tide-uncovered isthmus, scrambling up
     the scree-slope of what at high tide
     will be again an island,
     to where, a decade since well-being staked
     the slender, unpremeditated claim that brings us
     back, year after year, lugging the
     makings of another picnic——
     the cucumber sandwiches, the sea-air-sanctified
     fig newtons——there's no knowing what the slamming
     seas, the gales of yet another winter
     may have done. Still there,
     the gust-beleaguered single spruce tree,
     the ant-thronged, root-snelled moss, grass
     and clover tuffet underneath it,
     edges frazzled raw
     but, like our own prolonged attachment, holding.
     Whatever moral lesson might commend itself,
     there's no use drawing one,
     there's nothing here
     to seize on as exemplifying any so-called virtue
     (holding on despite adversity, perhaps) or
     any no-more-than-human tendency——
     stubborn adherence, say,
     to a wholly wrongheaded tenet. Though to
     hold on in any case means taking less and less
     for granted, some few things seem nearly
     certain, as that the longest day
     will come again, will seem to hold its breath,
     the months-long exhalation of diminishment
     again begin. Last night you woke me
     for a look at Jupiter,
     that vast cinder wheeled unblinking
     in a bath of galaxies. Watching, we traveled
     toward an apprehension all but impossible
     to be held onto——
     that no point is fixed, that there's no foothold
     but roams untethered save by such snells,
     such sailor's knots, such stays
     and guy wires as are
     mainly of our own devising. From such an
     empyrean, aloof seraphic mentors urge us
     to look down on all attachment,
     on any bonding, as
     in the end untenable. Base as it is, from
     year to year the earth's sore surface
     mends and rebinds itself, however
     and as best it can, with
     thread of cinquefoil, tendril of the magenta
     beach pea, trammel of bramble; with easings,
     mulchings, fragrances, the gray-green
     bayberry's cool poultice——
     and what can't finally be mended, the salt air
     proceeds to buff and rarefy: the lopped carnage
     of the seaward spruce clump weathers
     lustrous, to wood-silver.
     Little is certain, other than the tide that
     circumscribes us that still sets its term
     to every picnic——today we stayed too long
     again, and got our feet wet——
     and all attachment may prove at best, perhaps,
     a broken, a much-mended thing. Watching
     the longest day take cover under
     a monk's-cowl overcast,
     with thunder, rain and wind, then waiting,
     we drop everything to listen as a
     hermit thrush distills its fragmentary,
     hesitant, in the end
     unbroken music. From what source (beyond us, or
     the wells within?) such links perceived arrive——
     diminished sequences so uninsistingly
     not even human——there's
     hardly a vocabulary left to wonder, uncertain
     as we are of so much in this existence, this
     botched, cumbersome, much-mended,
     not unsatisfactory thing.